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I'm debating with myself whether to go on HRT or not. I know there are lots of pros and cons. And I know people who swear by one way or the other. My symptoms are night sweats and hot flushes. Plus my brain seems to have gone on holiday. I really need to go see my GP, but I hesitate because he's a guy and what do guys know?
See, there's always somebody who knows somebody who got cancer after going on HRT. Or someone who knows someone who didn't take HRT and now has osteoporosis. It's like the MMR vaccine. Somebody knows somebody whose child became autistic after the MMR. But I was not immune to Rubella during my second pregnancy and what would have happened to my son if I'd been exposed during the pregnancy. The more complicated and advanced medical science is, the more complicated our choices for our bodies are. And where do we find professional, neutral advice? My impression of doctors is that they want to shove pills down our throats for everything. There are times when that is appropriate, but there are times when that is lazy. That is why when I was in the depths of depression earlier this year I didn't go see my GP. I was afraid he'd just diagnose anti-depressives, and I got myself out of it anyway on my own.
So I don't know about HRT because I don't know my chances of getting osteoporosis or cancer. My mother doesn't appear to have osteoporosis, but my grandmother, I am sure, did have it. I'm built more like my grandmother than my mother, but I do a lot of weight-bearing exercise. And I take calcium. What about the cancer? I took birth control pills for about 10 years. I have no immediate relative who has had cancer. I had my first child when I was 34. I breastfed both for about six months each. I eat healthily and don't smoke. I do drink but not during the week usually.
I am very tired because I wake up EVERY night with the night sweats. The hot flushes are a bit amusing because I've always been so cold-blooded. Now I alternate between really, really hot and cold. I'm rarely comfortable. My daughter would tell you I have mood swings. Unfortunately, that's nothing new for me, and I blame it on the tiredness. I actually think I'm better now that I don't get PMS every month.
I just don't know what to do. Does anyone out there have any ideas?