See, I'd bought some last week, thinking they'd be nice wrapped round a fish or chicken fillet. It had been a busy week with one thing or another until Thursday. While hubby was picking up daughter, I decided to pull out the pancetta and cook it with some fish. It would be ready and waiting for us when we got back from picking up Jake.
I reached into the fridge, but there was no pancetta. I searched high and low. I looked in the freezer. I looked in the freezer in the garage. No pancetta. I was quite distraught by this point.
When hubby and daughter walked in the door, I greeted them with "What did you do with the pancetta?" Both claimed no knowledge of the pancetta. Hubby ranted that he was sick and tired of me blaming him for everything. Daughter was in tears. Was the pancetta worth this?
On one level, of course not. It's only pancetta.
On another level, yes, it was bloody was. I don't go out into the working world everyday, so get no outside validation for my role in life. My role in life, these days, is to be the go-fer for daughter, son, and hubby. And I'm sick of it. All I wanted was to make a nice meal with the pancetta, and someone showed no respect for that.
Of course, maybe I am going crazy, as daughter and hubby suggested. Maybe I never bought any pancetta.
The next night we were watching some nonsense that son wanted to watch. When it finished, I asked for the remote. He wouldn't give it to me. I very sternly asked for the remote again. Son handed it over and muttered "bitch" under his breath. I ordered him to go take a shower and go to bed. He must have gone to daughter to complain because she came in and asked if I'd been taking my HRT. He'd neglected to tell her about the bitch bit.
We've been having outstanding weather for this country, yet I feel oddly depressed. What can be wrong, I ask myself. Oh yeah, I remember. Hubby's out of a job, mother's got health and husband problems, dog just had second surgery on hip. Friends are crap. Kids are in difficult teen-age phase.
Yep, life is just peachy. And I still haven't found the pancetta.